august
12:29 a.m. - 2005-08-07

ay grabe... wala akong magawa...
oh.. okay, i correct myself..
super dami ko kailangan gawin
kaso di ako makaconcentrate.. sobra..
ewan ko.. nababad trip ako..
i know it's really stupid na dito
ko pa isulat ung feelings ko..
i don't know..
blogging has just caused me so much trouble kahit papano...
Hay nako lalo na ung july entry ko...
well, so what...
ewan ko... away nanaman ang mangyayari
after nito.. pero bahala na..
i'm used to it... what's new?

anyway, ang sakit ng ulo ko grabe.
ang hirap ng college.. super!!
2 days na rin akong wlang tulog kasi
i studied for a long exam na 11 chapters long!!!
my goodness, i read everything in 2 days..
i can't believe natapos ko..
pero syempre, medyo no use din kasi..
kakaiba ang exam... oh well...
math midterms naman next week!!!
lagot, bagsak nanaman ako...
weird huh?
oh well, i'm really worried kasi up to now, 4 pa rin ako... 3 lang talaga.. ok na ko...

i don't know talaga.
sobrang lungkot ng feeling na di ko
ma-explain...
ewan ko.. sakit ng ulo ko..
migraine ata...
and have you ever had 3 singaw all at the same time...
feeling ko ang dami ko nang sakit eh..

and, happy birthday billie!!!!
iniinggit ako ni herbie!!!
bad trip.. sorry couldn't come...
na-bingo kasi ako kay papa nung friday eh..
war kami kaya i didn't want to bother him na magpahatid... aaaawwww...
everyone's out having fun.
tapos ako nandito... nagmumukmok...
naiinis na ko!!!!
buti ka-chat ko si herbie....

sana wag na lang nya to basahin...
kasi ewan ko...
ang drama ko naman.. super O.A.
Ang unusual... di naman ako ganito usually..
oh well ulit...

gusto ko na matapos talaga lahat ng stress.. i know never mangyayari un..hehe..

ang senseless na ng sinasabi ko...

i'm just really pissed na...
debut ko na rin in about month...
haven't prepared yet..
so stressful.. so sad..
hay nako... well..
after naman nito i know it's all gonna be better...

it's crazy kasi i'm feeling na people are just getting pissed at me na eh..
ewan ko.. i've been just so busy and so engrossed sa sarili ko most especially sa studies and crap..
wala na kong time for everything else..
sorry sa lahat ng medyo nate-take ko na for granted.. love you parin guys..
sobrang nahihirapan lang tlaga ako..
it's crazy na talaga...

i can't blame anyone na rin kung walang
makaintindi sakin kasi...
i don't even understand myself...
nagiging mean ako.. pero ayoko naman gawin un...
i don't understand myself talaga...

hindi ko na rin macontrol temper ko minsan..
aaaarrrghh!! di ko alam kung bakit..
i really, REALLY need a break..
nasasaktan ako for some reason i don't know...

ewan ko..
ever had that feeling na everything's just wrong...
basta malungkot.. di ka masaya...
parang senseless lahat ng ginagawa mo..
purposeless ung life mo as of the moment...

ewan ko...
parang wala nang reason to smile or something...
crazy na ko talaga...

... HINDI!!!
stressed lang ako...
i'm gonna be fine naman...
wala lang talagang makausap...
si jazem kasi cannot be reached eh!!!
grrrr.....
tapos everyone nasa party..
ewan ko...
kaya blog.. sorry....
ikaw muna pag-iinitan ko....
hay nako.. by this time you guys would
probably stop reading na kasi it's super long na...
and super depressing na to..

well... don't be!!!
everything's gonna be better naman...
grabe.. ako ba to...
i'm so open naman..
unusual...

anyway, i probably won't be blogging for a long time ulit...
after 2 months nanaman siguro...
or longer...
i hate it eh.. nafi-feel ko na sobrang
bad ko... ewan.. basta...
hay... *breathe* hehe... :)

sorry kung super long....
take care guys!!!!
love you all...
mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah....
:)

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